new day...,

today already sunday november21...,
i already pass my birthday...,
what a perfect birthday i ever had...,
start the day with tear of happiness and dunno why i end it up with cry of sadness...,
don't ask me why..,coz i don't now why...!!!
the tears suddenly fell down and i can't handle it...,
a lot of mixing feeling..,missing someone..,losing someone..,feel being ignored..,i don't know why all these feeling came and screw up my night...,
but you tell me to keep smiling and keep thanks to God for giving me a family who loves me...,
i know that i already falling in love with you.,i just want to do everything that can make you feel the same..,and sometimes make me think twice coz i don't want make a mistake...,
last night..,when u get bored i asked u will you looking for me???but you didn't answer it and told me that i already know the answer...,it means you wouldn't looking for me.,u still can do something that can kill ur bore feeling than call me...,that's what i get...,it makes me think twice to call you..,coz everyday i call you and doing the same thing almost everynight..,so i hold my self not to call you and maybe if i can i just want to rise ur missing feeling to me..,even just for a little...,

sounds like a silly blog huh?!?!?!
i wrote this all here coz i know there will be only you who read this blog :)
and lets wait when you will read this blog :) i don't want to make all the situation getting worse...,