Harry Potter Time :)

I'm watching harry potter while I start to write this blog at my blackberry's memo..,it such a good movie I think..,funny..,romantic..,and sometimes makes ur heart beating fast..,

My mood wasn't good at this moment..,I don't know what I'm thinking about..,not just for this moment but lately since my birthday..,hahaha..,

All I know I'm affraid of losing someone..,she means special to me even we don't have a special relationship..,but I keep wishing that someday we will..,few days ago I feel there were something different with her.,I don't know why..,when I ask her..,she said she just need "ME time" time for her own ..,she said if she got to intens with me..,and don't want us to get bored each other..,and honestly I never get bored with her...

She always told me to think in positive way..,you know what..,I can't...!!!I'm too affraid..,I'm affraid if i lose her..,i think i love her..,

The way she think is too "cuek" (indonesian) [cuek=don't really care]..,I'm affraid if she thinks it's oke with out me..,I don't know why it always came to my mind..,I want to make her enjoy with me..,

Now I do really miss her..,she looks so enjoy with this condition..,that's why I'm so affraid and confused..,why why why?!?!

Now the negative thing on my mind is "think in positive ways mean you're ready to more get hurt...!!!" Am I right???

The movie has just ended..,can't wait for the second part...,

It's just about my worries..,:) happy weekend to all of u guys..., I keep saying it even I know there are noone will read my blog..,hahaha..,

Harry Potter time :)

FRANSOA / KALAU SAYA KAYA

new day...,

today already sunday november21...,
i already pass my birthday...,
what a perfect birthday i ever had...,
start the day with tear of happiness and dunno why i end it up with cry of sadness...,
don't ask me why..,coz i don't now why...!!!
the tears suddenly fell down and i can't handle it...,
a lot of mixing feeling..,missing someone..,losing someone..,feel being ignored..,i don't know why all these feeling came and screw up my night...,
but you tell me to keep smiling and keep thanks to God for giving me a family who loves me...,
i know that i already falling in love with you.,i just want to do everything that can make you feel the same..,and sometimes make me think twice coz i don't want make a mistake...,
last night..,when u get bored i asked u will you looking for me???but you didn't answer it and told me that i already know the answer...,it means you wouldn't looking for me.,u still can do something that can kill ur bore feeling than call me...,that's what i get...,it makes me think twice to call you..,coz everyday i call you and doing the same thing almost everynight..,so i hold my self not to call you and maybe if i can i just want to rise ur missing feeling to me..,even just for a little...,

sounds like a silly blog huh?!?!?!
i wrote this all here coz i know there will be only you who read this blog :)
and lets wait when you will read this blog :) i don't want to make all the situation getting worse...,

my 23rd birthday...,

today november 20 is my 23rd birthday..,
thanks God for Your blessing until now.,i need you to lead my way for my entire life...,
i start my day with a little tear drop of happiness =)
i got the sweetest gift i ever had..,yes this is your scrapbook =) it was really touching...,
even the present was sent a lilbit earlier..,but i didn't open it until the time =)


it was a special handmade scrapbook...,it have 10pages...,

COVER

1st page

2nd page

3rd page

4th page

5th page

6th page

7th page

8th page

9th page

last page

all of these is the sweetest gift...,i say the truth...,

now 23:44 already...,if i can be honest i just want this day end up earlier...,coz this day just great at the begining and sucks for the entire day...,dunno why but i really not in the good mood...!!!
damn...!!! i'm 23 already but why still moody???

start my day with tear of happiness and end up with smile of anger...!!!